Thinking Out Loud

       Why is it so hard for us (men and women who are white) to embrace and acknowledge the so called term - "White Privilege"?      If we're all honest, it is hard. For some of us, in fact, many of us, it's still something we find incredibly hard to understand and at our worst it's something we will fight against.     So why?    We struggle to grasp and or accept the idea that because of the color of our skin we have privileges that some people don't because it goes against the very notion of what we have been taught as American's. To so many, being called out for your privilege is anti the 'American Dream'.     The American Dream - that anyone, regardless of race, ethnicity, color, age, weight, etc can do anything in this country if they work hard enough, if they do enough, and if they "pick themselves up by their bootstraps."      It sounds so good - If I work hard, I will get what I deserve....

* For the record: I have never written a "blog" before. I am not a good writer, and I have no intentions in writing this now. I just desire a space to help me process the things going on in my life. Where do I even begin?       My life has been a mess the last 6 months - I have never felt so disconnected and drained in any season of my life. There are too many reasons to equate to my current state and too many thoughts rushing thru my brain to adequately express the scope of why I am where I am right now, but two pivotal things have taken place over the last two years that have led me to the space I am in currently.         The Election of 2016 & the Church       When Donald Trump was elected president in November of 2016 I felt my world collapsing around me. The pillars I had built my faith on, my friendships on, and the life I thought I knew, were crumbling all at once. Now before you read this an assume I'm just another ...